October 15, 1995

Royalty

My parents are entertaining English royalty in a building/submarine
that has gone from the surface of the ocean to deep within it.
Some time earlier I was told I could go along, but something bad happened and now I can't.
I'm upset by this, so me and Sara (W.) steal a boat and take it in the direction of Pendar island.


Rabbits

There are 6-7 baby rabbits with thick grey fur hopping around a forest glen.
The scene is very picturesque - thick green grass, smatterings of violets and clover,
light and shadows playing on the ground, etc.
There is a wooden hot tub off to one side, and steam rises from it even though it's warm out.
All is calm until a car horn startles a nearby deer into kicking one of the baby rabbits
into the side of the hot tub where it splatters all over the wood.


The beastly baby

I am being told an urban myth by a crinkled old man.
The story is true and I see the story as it unfolds.
The tale is of the big beastly baby.
No one knew where it came from or who it's parents were,
it just showed up one day, huge and fleshy and sexless,
with dark piggy eyes and a small wide mouth
that gave birth to shrill cries and hid a snakey, thick, grey tongue.
It was always hungry, always excreting a dark putrid fecal matter, and nobody loved it.
At first people felt sorry for it, and out of pity took care of it,
-washed it and changed it and fed it and tried to keep it happy,
but it only grew larger, developed more folds of blubbery flesh.
It never aged, and showed little sign of having a functioning brain.
Eventually people stopped feeling sorry for the beastly baby and began to hate it.
A large red elevator was built a way off from the town.
The elevator had 3 floors
(or rather one floor that would raise and lower through the bottom of the different levels).
The floor was controlled by a button on the outside of the building.
Each level had a large window along the front wall.
The elevator was located near a forest and next to a ramshackle country road.
The baby was brought to the elevator in the back of a truck
(as it was too big to fit into a car at this point) and put onto the lowest platform.
Someone pushed the button and the baby was lifted to the top floor.
Everyone left, and the baby was alone.
One person was designated to come and leave food and water on the lowered platform
and then raise it back up to where the baby was.
There was always a chance that the baby could fall through the hole
when the platform was lowered, but it never had.
Time passed and everyone seemed to forget about the whole situation.
-Everyone except the keeper of the baby.
The crinkly man smiles and reaches out his hand, a tiny red key in his palm.
I am trying to decide whether or not I'm going to take it when I wake up.


Mammy

Mammy (an old black woman) is making stew.
She opens up a very long can of cold beans.
The beans are dark and very shiny,
and she smiles as she scrapes them into her big stew pot.
The scene changes to a murderous couple
(a cross between Bonnie and Clyde and Mickey and Mallery)
who are zooming around on a windsurfing board with wheels, terrorizing people.
The woman; Janice, hops off the board shouting "KILL! KILL! KILL!" over and over
while shooting anything and everything in sight.
The man is still on the board, also shooting erratically.
A huge semi plows into him, crushing him against the front grate,
killing him instantly as the dream ends.


Photos

I'm looking at photographs of myself and Liz (P.)
The photos are brilliantly coloured and luminous,
rippling weirdly as if backlit and submerged in 3 inches of water.
Liz is tall and strong, with a nozzle growing from the middle of her chest.
I have tight strips of flowers sewn to my legs in lieu of pants,
and am wearing a top hat with a red poppy folding out of it.
Then my mother and I are arguing
about whether or not the negatives of these pictures belong to me.
I remember the pictures being taken, but I thought that they has been lost.
I'm surprised because I was expecting different photos.


Costume Ball

I have found a dark blue feather boa that perfectly matches my Halloween costume.
I slip on a black mask which fits just over my eyes, very high heels,
a short blue velvet skirt, and my PVC corset.
There are tiny peacock feathers in my hair that curl back into the locks
and curl forward around my hairline; framing my face.
I'm at a costume ball held at the Lux theater.
A few feet away from me I see James (T.)
He is wearing a crisp, white, double breasted cook's uniform, white gloves,
a white patent leather face mask that is molded perfectly to him, and white patent shoes.
He hasn't recognized me yet, and is alone.
I slowly walk up to him and raise my mask, putting a cigarette in my mouth (which is blue)
I say "fancy meeting you here...gotta light?"
He grins hugely and fumbles for his lighter, then lights my cigarette.
We just stand there staring at each other. Intense awareness of this blocks everything else out.
We stand there, barely touching, eyes locked.
I feel my wanting like a pheromonal tidal wave, making me shiver.
He slowly raises his gloved hands to my collar bones.
I feel the warm suede touch my skin.


Beach house

I'm living in a beach house with Liz and Paula.
We have huge bay windows in the living room.
Outside, it's sunny and bright and I can see people playing volleyball on the side of the hill
that leads either up to out place or down to the beach.
The ball flies past and we hear a loud "YIP!" as it hits a black dog lying in the grass.
I begin wandering around the different rooms alone.
In Liz's room I find a black candle in the shape of a generic witch figure.
This is part of a shrine that includes a talking Wizard of Oz clock
that has a photo of the main characters on the rectangular face.
Under the candle is a Skinny Puppy CD to catch the drippings on.
There's a triptych mirror reflecting 3 flames behind the lit candle.
I leave the room and notice the typically attractive volleyball players
standing outside the livingroom window.
I know they are here to look at the apartment. (We're renting out an adjoining suite)
For some reason I had bet $20 on their game and have won.
I let them in through the sliding glass.
There are three of them, all men. One of them walks into my room.
I say "it's kinda messy" and walk in after him to find that the room isn't messy at all.
It's similar to my real room, only bigger -with a very high ceiling, a skylight
(through which beautiful blue sky and clouds can be seen), and a woodburning stove/fireplace.
The walls are bright white.
He smiles and goes back to the others.
We tour the rest of the house and decide that they should move in.




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